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Less Than 10 Days Left: Disappointment or Contentment

On April 18th I wrote a blog post called “The Next 100 Days” – the Spring Semester was coming to a close and I was getting deep into competition prep. I looked on expectantly on those next 100 days to be a rewarding adventure and to provide me with answers.

I ended the post with these questions:

Where, how and to what level will my hard work pay off?!?

What door or window will open?

Will all of my struggles, efforts, sweat and tears lead to an explosive, amazing new phase to my life?

Or will things remain as stagnant, unchanging and difficult as they have been for the last 7 years?

The Root of Disappointment is Expectation

I ended my post with questions loaded with expectations. I wanted/expected my life to change and come together in those 100 days. At the end of those 100 days – if nothing else, I expected to see positive progress in my business and financial situation. Ultimately, I wanted a miracle. I wanted there to be an opportunity like none I have ever had in my life.

Your Selection of Perspective Frames Your Accomplishments and Happiness

As those 100 days are drawing to a close, I know it is the perspective I choose to have about what I accomplished and did not accomplish that will dictate my feelings and whether or not I am going to allow disappointment to cast shadows on what did transpire and what I accomplished.

There are still a handful of days left – therefore, it is still possible that the incredible opportunity will come knocking; God can make anything happen!! However, no matter what happens or doesn’t happen in regards to a new door or window opening for me, there’s no doubt the last 100 days have brought incredible changes, victories, and accomplishments into my life.

The Many Rewards

Aside from getting my diploma and winning a few trophies (plus qualifying for Nationals) – the many rewards of the last 100 days have been:

Increased Faith – My relationship with God grew in leaps and bounds the last 100 days.  I have never understood God or felt so close to Him has I do now.  Although my circumstances have not necessarily changed a whole lot – the pain, anger, and frustrations have vanished and been replaced with God’s strength, grace and peace.

I witnessed the works of God in my life and let go of the reigns.  I turned my will to Him and learned how to be more obedient. My times of struggles and hardships have been greatly minimized because I don’t try and solve my problems anymore. I turn to God and I realize I can’t make it without Him.

Amazed by my Family and Friends – I was blown away by the support, encouragement and love I received from my family and friends. The last 100 days brought me closer to everyone who matters in my life. It didn’t even occur to me when I set my “expectations” for those 100 days to seek and want to deepen my personal relationships. My priorities were skewed and I was awaken to it these last 100 days. My soul and spirit clearly needed to be provided for a lot more than my bank account did.

New Friendships and Connections – I made new friends and created new connections. I was able to motivate and inspire others.

Greater Self-Awareness– All that happened really allowed me to gain even greater self-awareness…especially when extremely carb depleted.  I got to see my true colors.  I didn’t like them much but I faced them head on.

Increased Self-Control and Self-Discipline – The challenges of competing and dieting definitely brought my levels of self-control and self-discipline to entirely new levels.

Clear About What I Want – The last 100 days and all that transpired have confirmed I remain very clear and determined about what I want, who I am, how I want to live my life and what matters most to me.

Letting Go of Expectations – Last but not least, I have finally let go of expectations. I have always expected so much of myself and managed to make myself miserable for it. Not anymore. I’m not going to be disappointed for not having the breakthrough I expected or for the lack of progress in my circumstances – I am going to stay happy, joyful and at peace with the many rewards and accomplishments I did achieve through Christ who strengthens me and continue my walk with Him, expecting more amazing things to happen.

Philippians 4:12 states it well: I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.